Just a girl in the world

Part of today was pretty awkward. I ordered a tripod for my iPhone from Amazon last Friday, and it was supposed to be delivered today. So, I came home expecting a little package to be waiting for me at my doorstep when I got home from school. Welp, there wasn't one there, I was like, huh odd.. Maybe it's in the mailbox? I checked the mailbox, nothing there either. So then I looked on Amazon to see if it was still out for delivery, and this is where it gets awkward. It had been delivered, yes, but to my old apartment. So, I rushed over to see if the people that lived there were home, and if so, hoping they wouldn't think I was a complete crazy person that sends packages to their house. Also, I was hoping they hadn't tried to send it back or something..that would've been stressful. So, I got to the apartment, knocked on the door, waited for about 20 seconds, heard the people in there say, "it's some girl," waited 5 more seconds, knocked again, and then a guy opens the door, I awkwardly explain my situation, the girl that was there with him says there isn't a package..but I can see the package on the back porch (there's sliding glass doors), and then we get it all sorted out. It was weird, and they were really confused, but hey, I got my tripod! It's pretty awesome, but going to take some getting used to.

Also, another reason why this rushing around to find my tripod package was so annoying, I've been searching for a few books. Ruby Slippers: How the Soul of a Woman Brings Her Home, Coffee Shop Conversations: Making the Most of Spiritual Small Talk, and Jesus Calling. All of which are obviously Christianity books, but I've been really feeling God tugging on me lately to become closer to Him again and I'm in need of some inspiration. Ruby Slippers is about femininity in the church and in Christianity; now, I'm not really one to speak up most of the time.. in fact, I'm not even really a feminist. Sure, I believe we as women should have equal rights, but I also believe we are here to serve. Serve God most importantly, but also, to serve our loved ones, our communities, just about anyone and everyone that we are called to care for and help. I haven't been as good of a servant in the past few years, I've been so caught up with life, school, wedding planning, and well, let's be honest, sleeping, to really care about being a servant. Okay, that wasn't the best way to word it, I have cared and wanted to be a better servant of Christ, but I've been struggling to find my place here at school and at the church I am currently attending. Sometimes life gets so big, I just get overwhelmed and want to close up and go back into my little shell of comfort. But, I'm working on it, and I hope that all of these three books guide me closer to my relationship with God, with Curtis, with my family, and with my church. There has to be a place for me, and I know I can find it..I've just got to try a little bit harder.

As for the other two books, the Coffee Shop Conversations is a book I hope will help me feel more comfortable talking about my relationship with God. I'm certainly not a Bible know-it-all, although, I would like to be able to use more scripture in my life, but my hope is that this book helps me think about spiritual talk and how to speak to those that may not know Christ, or even be better at talking with those who do know Christ. The third is a book a lot of people around me are reading. It's a daily devotional book, and while I was frantically looking around for the cheapest version of it I could find today (I'm just going to order it from Amazon btw), I read the devotional from my birthday (which is tomorrow!!), here's what it said:

Keep your focus on Me, I have gifted you with amazing freedom, including the ability to choose the focal point of your mind. Only the crown of My creation has such remarkable capability; this is a sign of being made in My image.

Let the goal of this day be to bring every thought captive to Me. Whenever your mind wanders, lasso those thoughts and bring them into My Presence. In My radiant Light, anxious thoughts shrink and shrivel away. Judgmental thoughts are unmasked as you bask in My unconditional Love. Confused ideas are untangled while you rest in the simplicity of My Peace. I will guard you and keep you in constant Peace, as you focus your mind on Me.

Such wonderful, wonderful encouragement. I literally almost cried when I read it in Hastings..(I am such a girl). But I felt like Jesus was talking straight to me, telling me to just focus on Him and everything would work out as it should, everything would be okay, and I know that it will. I'm not a fretter normally, fretting makes me nervous and I mostly feel like I don't have time for it anyway because I have so much on my mind. But, this passage just calmed me, and I realized haven't been truly calm in a long long time. I have to put Christ first more in my life, so so sooo much more, and I'm ready to do that. I also realized something else today, while I spent some quality time in my car (thank you awful College Station traffic), this blog.. I don't want it to specifically be for fashion, or crafting, or photography, although I do love all of those things, I want it to be about me, and an enormous part of me is Christ (the whole part in fact!) and my relationship with Him. So, I want Him to be a large part of this blog. I've never been one to write in diaries, I find them tedious and they kind of make my wrists hurt, so this will be my diary...my very public diary (awk). And I hope that not only me, but others get inspiration from it. For that's my purpose here on Earth, to be an inspiration, a follower of Christ, a leader, a listener, a mentor, all of the above, and I hope that people don't misconstrue my meaning behind all of this, because I'm not a pusher. Never have been, never will be. I will not push my views on to others, rather, I would like for them to show interest in it and maybe consider talking to me before I start rambling on about the Man who saved my Soul, Jesus Christ.


Now, on to less serious business.. I just got a bloglovin' profile! I can already tell it's going to be a life saver when it comes to reading blogs, all of it there in one place, easy to find, plus, I can mark things as already read! Awesome! So if you'll just click the link below to follow me on bloglovin'. It's also super easy for those that don't have a blogger profile to follow along too! Follow me on Bloglovin' :)

Oh, and outfit of the day!

Got the comment from my future sis-in-law that I looked like I was from the 80's, not what I was going for..but whatevs. Oh, and ballerina buns normally make my head hurt, surprisingly, my head still doesn't hurt..it'll probably start hurting now though since I said that, ha.
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Forever 21 Navy Blazer: Similar
Urban Outfitters Mint V-Neck: Similar
Gap Boyfriend Jeans: Same / Similar (Save)
Target Flats: I seriously can't find anything that looks like them..sad face.
Michael Kors Gold Watch: Same
Toe Nail Polish: Siren by Pure Ice
Ballerina Bun Tutorial: Here