Top: Old Navy | Shorts: Aeropostale (old) | Belt: Vintage (mom's closet) | Sandals: American Eagle (old) | Watch: Anne Klein | Hair Tutorial: Here
I've always been self-conscious of my thighs, in fact, if you've been following my blog for a little while, you'll know I did a post for Nicole's blog, Writes Like a Girl, on the very topic of my thighs (well, legs really). I'd much rather wear jeans, dresses, or skirts than shorts.. any day, everyday. They are hardly ever flattering, and sitting down kind of terrifies me. I remember being 11 years old and asking my dad if there were any exercises that would make your thighs skinnier, turns out.. there are, they just don't work for me. Muscular legs aren't a hot commodity in the fashion world, you better just trade your legs out for pixie sticks if you want to make it. Although, I've never quite understood why, most of the men I know prefer a little "meat on the bones." As I was going through the pictures from this little photo session, I realized I didn't want to post most of the pictures. Shorts have been and most likely will always be my mortal enemy. Going shopping for them mostly leads to me despising a part of my body that, unless I have a serious life change (aka, working out like a mad women and never eating a cookie ever again -- not happening), I will always have. Although I have never left in tears or anything like that, it does eat at me when I know I can't fit into shorts like "regular" girls. Living in Texas has been hard because there's no way of avoiding the awful summer temperatures. I mean, we've already hit 90 degrees, and it's only the beginning of May. It's basically a requirement to wear shorts from June to mid-September at some point, or else you may have a heat stroke.
Now, I know most women struggle with self-image, and it can be really difficult to overcome sometimes. I don't think about my legs constantly or anything like that, but they do bring me down at times. I don't know if I've ever mentioned this on my blog before, but in the past year, I've lost 45 lbs, and though I'm pretty happy with the body I've developed, I always find things that bother me. I'm also absolutely terrified I'm going to gain all of the weight back. For seven or eight months, I was a pro at logging all of my meals and exercising pretty regularly, but once serious wedding planning hit and school started getting out of control, I just fell off the wagon. I don't indulge myself too much, but it's much more than I did while on my strict diet.
Back to the topic of shorts.. after thinking about this post for some time, I've decided to embrace my legs, and figure out what works for me and my body. Shorts that aren't as fitted on the thighs make me feel much more comfortable, and honestly, they're more modest too. It's a struggle to find shorts that actually look decent on me; I've had the same five or six pairs for well over three years. But, I'm determined to not let it bother me when I can't find a pair that works. So yeah, it was really hard for me to actually post this outfit.. but hey, my style isn't always what I want it to be.. or should I say, it doesn't always look like I imagined it in my head. I'm me, and my body's different from everyone else's. But, becoming more comfortable in my own skin is extremely important to me, and I believe this blog has helped me so much!
I hope everyone has a happy Friday. I've been doing some last minute wedding things, and it's a bit stressful around these parts. But.. it'll all be worth it next Saturday. Ahhh, I can't wait! In the meantime, I'm missing my Curt while he's in Houston for the weekend with his boys (woo, bachelor party). I'm kind of jealous, they're going to the Rangers-Astros baseball game.
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